The Beach House

Every girl I knows dreams about a beach house, the novelty of going to a hide away and planning adventures. Seeking the ideal adventures together with the one they love or alone.I have always been the one to think "alone" but always day dream about the hubby and kids being around.Being alone my family and friends never really let me do that, and that's OK too. I feel at peace with myself with many issue in my life but still desire to be alone when those moments come up.So with my idea of wanting to buy a beach house in California a true fixed upper. Or even a dilapidated old barn with charm. It has been my dream. A place to plant lavender, a vegetable garden, watch my sons grow and there kids come visit too, one of those beach houses.To be the first one on the beach in the morning for a morning run and see the day unfold in front of me. To really be there and smell all there is to smell with the big waves crashing at my feet. Yes this has been my dream.Playing foot ball, volley ball, sand castles, take long slow walks on the beach, fill your pockets with small shells that you can put in a glass jar in your kitchen window back home, relax, walk in the rain on the beach, hunt crabs on the beach at night, take photos on the beach, flying a kite, sitting on the beach watching a beautiful pink and orange sunset with margarita in-hand and my list of why I want a beach house goes on and on....LOL I know that a phase of my life is ending, one where the kids are at home and my Dad is gone, Mom living by herself in the house that I grew up in. The rhythm of my days and our holidays and our family is changing. I also know that these are very minor worries in the scheme of things and that I am fortunate to have these as my main concerns. But they still make me sad."The BEACH HOUSE" yes looking forward.............................I try not just to ready myself for he next part of the journey but to welcome it, and to move forward with a little bit of grace, and with thanks for what is past.